facing fears and demolishing them

Fear isn´t funny. Not at all. And it´s taken me a looong time to even get to the conclusion that sharing the list is a good idea. But I will. I´m not afraid(!) of that- that is! I think a lot of my fears are pretty normal though. It´s just not normal to admit to being afraid. I think. But I will. And I do. And I´ll be braver. Step by step.

When I first sat down to make this list, I had clue that the list would be this long. I can´t live life being scared of all this stuff, so I will kill them off one by one. With time. It will take time. And it will be rough and hard, and scary, but Ill make it happen. At least the ones I feel is most urgent. I don´t see myself swimming with sharks anyday soon, but the fears that actually eat into my life, I will try to face and demolish- one by one. Here´s how I´ve done it!

01. Fear of flying     02. Fear of rejection  - not afraid of rejection anymore. It seems like I´m just not afraid....just started trusting more, I guess. The people around me. And myself, because I am strong! I am me! 03. Fear of death    04. Fear of failure  not afraid enough of failure to keep it on the list anymore. How it happened, I´m not quite sure of, but it somehow with writing the blog just went away: so for those of you who wonder- start a blog, and being afraid of failure goes away:) 05. Fear of being trapped in a small area  So not anymore! I actually went co-co on this one, forcing myself to take elevators and be in small places, just enough times to not be afraid anymore. And it worked yeayh!   06. Fear of not being able to breath   This one actually still bothers me a little bit, but not enough to be on the list anymore-  really. I started working with lung patients at the hospital, making me realize just how much the human body can take. And then again- If I don´t breath, I´m not here, and then what is there to worry about?   07. Fear of snakes   08. Fear of swimming in deep waters     09. Fear of sharks attacing me while swimming in deep waters     09. Fear of being watched by a man standing outside my bedroomwindow while I sleep  I just desided not to be afraid anymore. Stupid Fear. What it took? To sleep with the curtains open and just accept that if there´s a man who wants to look at me while I´m asleap, well, then I´m just ganna let him!   10. Fear of being in a a car accident  one day I just decided to get over it. To challenge myself and just deal, so I did, and I´m not taking chanses out there in traffic, but I´m not scared anymore! Sweet releif! And that also goes for the next one on the list- nr. 11.    11. Fear of my family being in a car accident     12. Fear of high blood pressure  not anymore! I stopped smoking, and it went away!   13. Fear of not getting to be pregnant    14. Fear of dentists     15. Fear of getting an alergic reaction to something I eat This is actually one that I´ve been working on for quite some time, and whenever I try something new, the old scare is there hunting me a little bit, but every time I choose to ignore it, face it, and just take it! This has been a great one getting past, because it has really changed my life getting over it! I now enjoy new foods again, and wow- what a world of untasted tastes:)     16. Fear of Rafael leaving me for someone better, smarter, younger and sweeter(!)    I simply trust him. Maybe I made a choice too, but whatever it was, looking on the list now has made it clear to me that that fright is gone:) and I love it, love him, and love us! 17. Fear of big pandemies just not anymore!    19. Fear of cancer I just somehow quit that fright. Still not a plesant thought, but nothing I worry about. Not afraid anymore  20. Fear of not being able to stop smoking  I stopped! I made it. Not scared anymore! Great, great, great  relief! 21: Fear of getting a stroke my attitude has changed- life is too short- live!